d o w n

Tree branches downed by the recent storms.

r e s o l v e

New Year Resolutions:

I. Don't give up; don't accept ennui and stagnation.
II. Don't place your hopes on others; continue to build yourself up and be strong.
III. Stop buying extra lives on Candy Crush.
IV. Don't be afraid to succeed.

c o m m u t e

l i t t l e . l i g h t

Whenever I pass by a window, I can't help but look inside--especially at night. Walking past in the dusk or darkness, they glow seductively, little golden glimpses into another world.

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I recall a conversation in winter, when I was four or five: my father sitting on the edge of my bed one night and telling me how to break my window (with the miniature blonde-wood chair from my desk set) and escape in case of fire. I imagined myself hopping through knee-high snow in my nightgown; I tried to summon up the strength that such a task necessitated, and wondered if I ever could.

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Five years later: on summer nights when high-winds rendered me too anxious for sleep, I sought comfort in the noise and light of television. Nestled on the plaid couch in our family living room, I focused my eyes on the screen and willed myself not to glance towards the far side of the room with its wide windows; beyond the peeling paint of those aged wood frames was the wide open sky, tinged an unnatural pink. In front, there stood a long table of heavy, antique wood which was laden with plants whose silhouettes were only just visible against the glass.  

I remember the angry howl of the wind coming down the chimney and the ominous sight of skeleton branches dancing wildly against the clouds.

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On another summer evening, in young-adulthood: walking through quiet neighborhoods with someone that I had feelings for, the mood casual yet confusing. As we meandered past quaint houses on lush, tree-lined streets, I passingly peeked into open windows; I wondered if the people who lived within were happy. As the sun set and nature turned cool grey and blue, I wanted to be inside the golden light of those bright homes and the life that they embodied.

g a r d e n . p a r t y

Yesterday, I spent the better part of the afternoon out on my quaint condo patio doing an impromptu photo shoot. Taking photos of my work for Etsy is a job that I'd been putting off for a while; those who know me know that I'm a perfectionist and not the most confident photographer (a dangerous combination!). The sunlight and warm air were alluring though, and I found myself enjoying the act of capturing my work (and some other things too!). I like that I'm starting to appreciate plants and nature much more than I did in the past too.

l e t s . b e . f r i e n d s

 

 

Today was a melancholy day; things that I thought were going to happen have been pushed out of my immediate schedule and I've been feeling aimless and unproductive.

When I'm feeling down, looking at my Tumblr Archive always makes me feel calm and inspired. These tiled images create a perfect little world full of serenity and adventure and I love how easy it is to escape from reality and drift away when I look at them.

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